eak, selfish, and hard — able to think of their pain without a pain to myself that would have destroyed all temptation. Oh, what is Lucy feeling now? She believed in me — she loved me — she was so good to me. Think of her ——”
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A deep flush came over Maggie’s face, and she couldn’t speak. Stephen saw this. He sat down again, taking her hand in his, and looking at her with passionate entreaty.
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Stephen loosed her hand, and rising impatiently, walked up and down the room in suppressed rage.
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